I spent the first ten years of my corporate life conceptualising events and bringing together people and companies to cultivate a sense of community and collaboration in the business sector. I lived and breathed the ideal of convincing and promoting the message that serving human wellbeing was the basis alongside, if not prior to, the profit bottomline. To me, it was great because I could be both creative and somewhat altruistic at the same time in this work.
Before I knew it, I was connected to that larger purpose and working my life off, literally. I had bit by bit lost connection with my own individual meaning in life. A series of changes in the workplace started to unravel the personal chaos that I have failed to address and stuffed down in the name of pursuing my growth in the career track, which was what I was conditioned to believe was the most important thing in life. While I was a strong contributor when it comes to work, the feedback as I progressed was that I didn’t always come across as compassionate enough as a leader. I was in inner turmoil because I had always believed that when we place perfection to do our utmost for our work, and by sharing, teaching, motivating, and also chiding, criticising and when necessary to even flame their passion with some ‘you have to show me you have what it takes’ to get people moving; that was for the good of everyone. I could not understand why that worked with my siblings and my schoolmates but not here.Talk about unmet needs, unhealed belief patterns, and unjustified projections and unaligned expectations!
As my ‘Alpha’ attitude for work and my people pleaser personality began to clash, I started to experience stress, throat infections and gut health issues. Worse yet, passive aggressive dynamics in the workplace that were not always initiated by me began to ensue as I withdrew and held back from my usual direct communication. Misunderstood and stifled, having also neglected my own personal life outside of work, I battled between leaving and staying. At that time, I just didn’t have the wisdom or knowledge and tools of how to help myself; how to recognise where my true values are, my beliefs and patterns, how to handle emotions in me and others, and clarity about who I am and my sense of self worth.
During a yearlong sabbatical, life began to unfold as though the Universe had been waiting to teach me about Love and Who I am - the questions that I sought answers for. Within that year, I experienced a most beautiful heart-based pilgrimage that provided a transformational experience of learning to trust in intuition and divine guidance, meeting a variety of people that showed me that love is truly beyond all forms and at the basis, unconditional – kind, accepting and all encompassing that helped me to release judgement and social conditioning, becoming a single unwed mother realizing that I have inadvertently asked for this child, and as a result began a homecoming to my sacred self as I learnt to heal, accept and embrace myself.
The power to heal and co-create life is in everyone of us. We have been told all the time, but we were not taught how. I stumbled unto them magically albeit awkwardly. In the past 10 years since, there were major lessons in all aspects of my life – self identity, esteem, relationships, career, finances, family, friends... I met with so much challenge but also learnt to love and be loved, emerging stronger. It was intensive but enlightening. Both shadow and light work were essential to support me to come into awareness to live more consciously. Meditation, energy medicine, oracle cards, intuitive soul coaching, body work, somatic work, sound healing, yoga, sacred retreats, art therapy, singing, dancing, moon circles, working with angels, encountering the divine, learning from holistic practitioners in their fields to empower people in all kinds of physical, mental and emotional and spiritual tools…you name it. These practices and tools helped me to heal the scars upon my heart that I felt but have never seen clearly before, and unleashed my own power to come into my own radiance.
In this coming decade and beyond, I serve to support those who are seeking their own heart’s desire, wanting to experience more love and more joy in their life, balance between intuition and logic, heal themselves and their families, become more present in their workplace, and creative and fearless in their ways of living, to lose their fears, stress and worries; pain, guilt and shame; anger, pride and jealousy, to come into an elevated state of love, peace and oneness.
In my experience, I have learnt the amazing truths about “Love” – that it is beyond romance, beyond a mother’s love, beyond the family; a universal creative and blissful energy which is the base state of creation itself; godly yet extremely grounded energy that ushers in anything that we desire in life. It is compassion. It is forgiveness. It is joy. It is happiness. It is ecstasy. It is peace. It is extraordinary. It is common. It is all. It is the larger “I” when we are all as one.
I have also learnt about shadows, darkness, limiting beliefs and negative energies that permeate our existence and persist as our various frustrations and failures in life’s pursuits. Not to be feared or judged but simply acknowledged as a part of the whole spectrum of life, our awareness and compassion can help us to transform and grow in face of them. In truth, what is better than contrast to help us comprehend the sweetness of life itself?
If you are a seeker, the sensitive, the spiritually curious and inclined, I urge you to start building your intuitive muscles and healing abilities, so that there will be more and more people in this world who will become more loving, collaborative and creative.
My vision is a more peaceful, happy and joyful, delightfully creative and loving world for my child and all the children in us.
If you are a mother and leader of your pack, I invite you to lead as a powerful healer of the family and become a shining example of self love, self care and self mastery for your children.
If you are a leader in entrepreneurial spaces or the corporate world, I urge you to utilise and experience holistic tools to equip yourself and your teams with greater capacity for emotional resilience and powerful performance in business, creating a better environment for sustainable performance infused with Love, Energy Flow & Creativity.
If you are a coach or therapist, you too need support and strengthening; and added perspectives and creative visioning sometimes.
The rate of change is immensely fast today and will continue to be so. We need to exercise more muscles and tools in our human make-up, our intuition, compassion and various levels of consciousness; so as to tap into and become masters of our rich creative abilities to fuel the next phases of our collective evolution. I look forward to sharing what I have learnt with you so you can also become a conscious co-creator of your life.
